i have, at certain points in this pregnancy, questioned the bond i have with my sweet girl and if we're behind schedule a bit. i can remember with wyatt feeling so incredibly connected to him. i know a lot of that has to do with the whole first pregnancy thing - and not having to do ANYTHING when you get home after work besides THINK about your sweet bambino growing inside you. i get that. that's not lost on me at all.

but it didn't mean it didn't make me feel badly that my little lady and i just didn't have the same quality time together as wyatt and i did before he was born. i have been relying on that moment my eyes meet hers. that's when our real story begins. or so i thought.

i think our story really started this week. without going super deep, or getting really detailed, she and i have had a few moments this week. moments i needed. reminders that she's mine. and i am hers. i am here to protect her. love her. no matter what. as a parent you learn the true meaning of unconditional love. and as mamas - we get the honor of "mama bear-ing" out on occassion. as hard as they are, these were the moments i think we needed to experience. i believe that our relationship is quickly forming already. she's my little girl.

we saw her sweet face this week and i am happy to report she is a beauty. she already seems to look a lot like her brother. which means, she already looks  a lot like her daddy. which means, the odds of me getting a mini me in the physical form are looking to be slim to none. (damn you, strong jensen genes!)

she's perfect. and she's ours. and we're beyond lucky.

i am thankful for this week and for the lessons she's already teaching me.

the name game

we must say, "what about _____?" at least 3 - 15 times a day, depending on how much time we have together. for example, a typical work day consists of at least 2 texts per day of me throwing a name out there. this past week, we probably tossed a new name out every three hours.

and nothing seems to stick. why is it so much harder this time!?!?!? we can't seem to find "it". the most perfect name for our sweet girl. wyatt's name was easy. no questions. we knew it many moons before i was even pregnant. this time around, as it's been with many things, is different. we have names we like, a few we love, but nothing we are comfortable saying "that's IT!!!!!!' to. the list is getting longer and longer. the one name we thought we liked enough turned into a dog name. i heard about three dogs with the same name in one week and decided game on...

and i never thought we'd be that couple that gets all the way to the point of having our baby before naming her. are we really going to just take this list with us to the birth center, look at her and pick a name? "ahh, ok. she looks like a _______!" or, "i took one look at her and knew that her name had to be _____." or "well, honey - what do you think? _______ or ________?"

worse yet - what if we STILL don't have a name picked out when she's born?! what if we are driving home hours after having her still playing the fu*&ing name game!?

facebook post reads: "baby girl jensen has arrived. born last night at 9:09 pm, weighing 7 pounds. healthy and beautiful. still deciding on her name!"

it's possible. we've been tossing names around since nov 29th. you'd think we'd come up with something by now. nope. the game continues.

please wish us luck on landing on THE NAME by the time my water breaks. the girl needs a name.